Art is hard...I guess it's supposed to be.

So, I try to paint and be productive but my mind is heavy with the troubles that many have in this world of ours. I have no work and have less money. I am trying to be positive about it and I call on the spirits of my loved ones to help guide me forward through these difficult times. I tried to get unemployment and was denied because of a paperwork snafu. It is amazing to me that the world which I see in such color can be so black and white. I head downtown today to see if there is a human being there that I can talk with and maybe get some help. I have a job interview tomorrow where I hope to get another way of paying bills that sucks the soul from me like an open artery would. I am trying to stay hopeful but it is not easy. I hope that the darkness of my life right now does not dim the colors on my canvas.